Hey 小寶貝, I hope that you will never have to read this post, because it means that something is bothering you or you are not happy. But since you are here, take your time to read the post, please excuse my grammatical errors as most of the contents were written during nighttime.
To others who have access to the content of Amy's blog: This post is meant to cheer Amy up, but if you want to read it, go ahead (contents can be a little cheesy at some points).
Once again I am sorry for invading your privacy and taking a peek into your past. As you know, like a true scientist (who is going to win Nobel price before he is 22), I am a curious person and I always want to learn more about you (or I am just a insecure MoFo).
You are currently studying for your mgt322 +eating your freaking froot loop cereal (I hate it, no offense)and I am just here sitting beside you pretending to care about my mgm 101 exam (lol I totally don't and I am going to fail, GG~~~~ ).
Anyways, all of the above is irrelevant, as this post is meant to serve a greater purpose.
I understand your blog is where you post about your personal feelings and it is also a channel for you to be in touch with your good friends. However, I have noticed (during my 100th readings of your blog) that it has some negative contents and every time you read it, something seems to trouble you.
Well, that is why this post is here, because I am here to change that, and I hope the next time you open your blog, you close it with a smile on your face (because you look amazing when you are smiling and I love making you happy).
I won't always be physically beside you, so here are some tips to help you feel better when you can't reach me or when you prefer to have time to figure things out by yourself.
1. Encountering the problem
Like this picture is suggesting, why are you unhappy? what is bothering you?
(If you miss 陳安迪 too much please proceed to the 快樂旅遊section and relive our happy dates.)
Perhaps you are having a horrible day in school/internship, or having a bad dream, or having some unpleasant thoughts. I know sometimes it is easy to be influenced by stuff that is unimportant at the moment and it can be really hard to get the negative thoughts out. So it is really important for you to give yourself a "break".
2. Escape For a Minute
Although people say that you should face your problem face on, but sometimes it is okay to "hide" from your problem (I know this sounds totally irresponsible but please finish reading it). These are the activities that help emptying your mind and help you achieve better mood.
Exercise: Nothing is better than exercising to make you feel better. Go for a swim (by the way, you look really good in your swimming suit), go for a jog or you can play table tennis (please go easy on your opponents, don't kick their ass to hard). Bike riding is also a great way to exercise!
There are also other escape method such as watching your new favorite show, "How I Met Your Mother" !! (Trust me, watching it will make your day a lot better!) Or you can watch some doctor show or "we just got marry." The main point is that you should try to relax your mind, and don't over think too much about it. There are plenty of time for you to figure out the solution later :)
3. Facing the Problem
It will be nice if we can escape from our problem forever, but sometimes we do need to face the problem. This is no easy task, and it takes a lot of courage for people to acknowledge that it is time to face the problem. It might be about things that have happened a long time ago or things that are happening right now. It might be big or it might be something small. But if it bothers you, then you need to make a decision as to how to solve it. After you finish step 2, you should now have a clear mind ready for some problem solving.
There is no perfect solution to any problem, and in the process of making a solution, you might lose things/people that are important. However, it is important that you make that decision as indecisiveness can often lead to secondary problems or hurting more people.
Problem solving techniques:
Your IQ is over 146 (sorry I forgot the exact number), so you should have no problem solving any problem. However if you do, this is the my problem solving steps.
-Priority: Understanding your priorities can help with the problem solving process. Sometimes we are faced with a dilemma where all decisions result in a loss. However, if you understand what is important to you then making the decision wouldn't be that difficult (
對自己好一點,好好照顧自己).
-Cons/Pros: make a list of the possible outcome and advantage/disadvantage on the decision you are about to make. Assess those carefully and make a decision based on your priority.
-It is not easy to think of a solution alone, so don't be afraid to seek help. You can always tell me your problem as I said before, "
當你開心的時候我可以不在你身邊, 不過當你難過時請讓我陪你."
I understand that it might be a little difficult to talk to me about everything and that is okay :)
Here is a list of people that I think will give you valuable advice.
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阿賴: I know he is currently in the military, so he might not be free most of the time, but I am sure he will always make time for you. From what I heard + all the information I collected from stalking/ privacy invasion, he seems like a reliable person, and he knows you really well. He might not have all the solutions to your problem, but I am sure he is a great listener!
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阿銘: I don't even know whether or not I type his name correctly. Honestly, I do not know much about him, but from my understanding he is a dedicated person and usually this type of people is quite reliable.
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阿齊: ummmm, he makes some debatable choices sometimes, but I am sure he is willing to help out with your problems :).
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Celine, Jia Yen& Tammy: I don't really know much about them, but I am sure they are very supportive and they seemed like really nice people (the way they talk are really cute).
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SGCEF: Okay, I know, this one sounds kinda funny given the stuff that has happened within the fraternity over the last few months. However, I still do think that some members are really great. Gluttony can be a little judgmental and you guys often fight over the little stuff. I was really lonely yesterday, so I talked to him a lot. He is a really good listener and he is really good at making people feel better for some weird reasons. Sloth can be a little detached from time to time and Sloth is really cold towards me. But Sloth loves talking to you whenever a problem in her life arises. I think that means Sloth really trust you and she is a great person. She might not have the solution to everything, but I think if you are willing to open up to her, she is willing to listen.
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Your parents: These two people are the people that love you the most and they are the people that have been close to you for the longest time. I understand there are something that you can't or don't want to tell your parents (I always have trouble talking to my dad about anything). But understand that your parents love you, and they will continue to love you no matter who you are. They might yell at you for a few minutes or they might nag you for a day or two, but by the end of the day, they will still be there to support you and they will still be there to listen to your problems.
Also your mom has great understanding in many areas, so I am sure she can be a great help (I am not being sarcastic, by the way if you have time, please talk to her about GMOs).
Since your dad is the gang leader, he can probably ask his underlings to solve your problems (Just kidding, but from what I heard, he is a forgiving father and he always try to make sure you are fine.)
Remember, your family loves you <3
-Andy (Friend Mode): This guy is only 19, he is a little immature, makes weird noises when you talk, sings random songs from time to time, doesn't talk too much about himself, likes to over think, insecure from time to time, like to invade other people's privacy, watches a lot of inappropriate videos, sometimes not very reliable, loves CMS.
Ummm, my point is that he might not seem like the most reliable person to talk to and he can be a little insensitive. But trust me, he is a great listener and he will try his best to help you come up with a solution. If not, he will still take you out for a walk and that might help you clear your mind up. Remember this guy really wants to know all about your problems, although some problems might be painful to hear for him, but he promised you that he will always be there to listen.
Here are his contact information: 6476487222, andy50319@hotmail.com, and his facebook+ skype account is online most of the time :)
I hope by this point, you have found a way to approach the problem you are facing. Below is just something for you to read and who knows, it might cheer you up.
To 萱,
This part is my personal message to you, and it contained a lot of things that I have said and stuff that have happened. I hope that I have written this portion of the blog a little earlier, before you get on that plane, so I don't have to feel so alone right now. Anywaysssssss, enjoy my little message to you :)
First of all, I want to thank you for being the first girl to ever say "yes" to me. I know I am not the most romantic person in the world, and the way I asked you out was a little awkward (I promise I will make it up to you one day). Everything that we have done together, our first kiss, the first time you hug me, the first time you told me you love me, our first date, our first CMS, our first firework, those were really memorable moments for me. Even the first time that we had a big fight or the first time you farted in front of me, those moments were really special to me. You are one of the best things that has ever happen in my life, you make me so happy for the past three months. I understand that our relationship had a rough start, I was too immature and you have not yet open up to me. I admit, some moments were painful for me, I have never felt so hopeless in my life. You said that on our white paper there is a big stain, you said that it will be there forever. I agree with you, the stain is there and it is standing out from the white background. But, I like to think of it differently. Sure the story wasn't perfect, but we wrote the story together so regardless, it will always be special for me and hopefully, for you too. I believe if we continue to write, eventually we will have too many pages for us to even notice or remember the stain at all. I know that the metaphor I used is really bad so I will write it differently: I accept your past, because your past is what makes you the woman I love so much today. I love you and I love you for who you are.
I love you a little bit more every single day, and I am really grateful for all the things that you have done for me. I remember those nights when I was having trouble breathing, you were always right next to me. I am a selfish person. I know I can be a little demanding from time to time like asking you to not use your phone and I often have ridiculous request. So it made me really happy over the last 2 months to see that you barely touch the phone, and I will always cherish our time at the Niagara Falls (sorry Annie).
I really miss you right now (by the way, I found all the hidden sticky notes, I love you).
There are a lot of things that I want to write here, but I will much rather say those things to you in person.
I hope during the next two months, you will be spending quality times with your family, with your friends and I am sure you will learn a lot from the internship.
Also, I hope during the next two months, you can clean up your stuff and do some thinking about what you want in the future. I hope by the end of your vacation, you will be finished packing up, because I am ready to go on a long journey with you. Most importantly, I will be waiting for you.
I love you 小寶貝
陳安迪
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Timeline & 快樂旅遊:
I have short-term memory, you have short term memory so I just think this might be helpful to keep track of the all the things that have happened. Maybe by looking at the text and the picture, you will think of our fond memories, and hope that will bring a smile on to your face.
(I am not done yet and I will continue to work on it. Feel free to add anything to the timeline.)
The way that we got together was a little weird, yet it is always sweet in my mind, but let me start from the beginning. Thanks to Yikai, we met each other and has the chance to get to know each other. To be honest, I never expect myself to fall in love with you as I have this weird expectation for girlfriends (has to be studying science). I remembered the first time we went out for dinner, I remember seeing you cry, I remember not knowing what to say/do, and I remember being an idiot and asking Annie to give you a hug (I was not that good at comforting people). The next thing that I have a clear memory of is that every time we go out and eat, you and Yikai would just be talking non-stop with each other. I also remember that you guys try to join the group by not sitting too close with each other.
Halloween: As a group, we were trying to find a costume together, so we went to Wal-Mart but we end up not finding anything that we like or is within our price range. But I do remember taking a really cute picture together with you, and I think that is the first ever picture that we took together (You are such a cute little bird). I remember that me and you wanted to go shop for costume one more time the day after, I am so sorry for not going with you on that day :(
But overall, I had fun during the Halloween party and I still had the devil tail you bought for me <3.
I promised that next Halloween, we can go to the same party again, but this time we can put on couple costumes.
